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Posts in Anger

Walls

Anger, Love, Missing, abuse, control, Losing control, Broken relationships, Stillbirth, Bereaved Mother, Shame, Life after loss, griefEmma JamesMarch 1, 2019GriefComment

Rescue

“I will send out an army to find you in the middle of the darkest night...

I will never stop marchin’ to reach you in the middle of the hardest fight...

I hear you whisper underneath your breath. I hear you whisper you have nothing left...

It’s true, I will rescue you...”

Stillborn, Chaos, abuse, Missing, Life after loss, control, Shame, Searching, Trauma, Love, Stillbirth, Bereaved Mother, Losing control, Anger, griefEmma JamesJanuary 28, 2019Exhausted, lifeafterloss, Grief, StruggleComment

Mending

“The friendship which can cease has never been real.” (St. Jerome)

Speak to Me

How much longer will I be able to keep this up? How much more will be asked of me? I miss her. I miss her so much. And I cry out to my God who gave and took: Speak to me! Speak to me. Because at your command, these waters can be stilled. Your voice can calm the waters raging within (“the sea in me”).

Chaos, Losing control, Stillbirth, Stillborn, Sunrise, grief, Stillbirth Survivor, Life after loss, Missing, Trauma, Searching, Bereaved Mother, AngerEmma JamesJanuary 17, 2019grief, exhaustion, Stillbirth, AngerComment

Inferno

Stillbirth, grief, abuse, Life after loss, Chaos, Trauma, AngerEmma JamesJanuary 13, 2019Chaos, grief, Trauma, stillbirth, AngerComment